LIFE IS GIVING APPLES, SO I'M MAKING ORANGE JUICE OUT OF THEM.
Hi there, Mich. Thank you for that. It still feels surreal, if I have to be honest with you. Day by day, it’s like giving that old cliche ‘I’ve never felt this happy before’ a new depth. I do not know if I deserve this, or if this lasts— because that’s the perversity of human nature right, when everything seems right it feels wrong? So I am just enjoying wherever I am now and whoever I am with.
The breakup with Anna is something I don’t wanna talk about, hence I kept it for sometime now. It’s kind of mental right, I came here for that girl only to know that it will not work. It’s kind of hard really since the beginning, I am just being reckless about it, leaving Phil and all that but then I have to face the reality— that she’s got her own plans, and maybe, it just happens that I am not in there.
But then, you don’t stop loving. Have to love beyond what you think love is or how you experienced love to be. Yeah yeah, calling dibs on Mr. Depp. You got people who would gladly hold your hand and jump over puddles stretching for miles and miles and will want to experience the accidents and joys of this life with you— you don’t deny yourself the chance to be with those people right.
This is something I thought I’ll keep but some Tumblr friends are asking so might as well use these spaces for this. I am not comfortable making a separate post about this. Would’ve done before if I am. My apologies.
I’ve been beating around the bush for a long time not saying these three words because I fear it’s not the right thing to say. But I know. Fuck it. You’re a magical and fascinating human being and I can’t believe you exist. So fuck it, fuck it really. I love you. I will gladly hold your hand and cross oceans with you. I will hold your hand and jump over puddles stretching for light years with you. I don’t know how to do it but I have you, and you have me and there must be a way to do it. I love you and it doesn’t make sense to me why I shouldn’t tell you this when, deep in my heart, I know that’s what I feel. I will hold your hand and won’t let it go.